Caitlin's Real Journey to Health

A lot harder than it sounds

The Whos, Whats, Whens, Wheres, and Whys

Hello, blog world! So I finally decided to jump on the blog bandwagon. I’ve been thinking about it for a while now but I didn’t just want to randomly blog about my life. That’s what I use Facebook for. So I spent a lot of time thinking about what I wanted to blog about. I initially wanted to do a chemistry blog but I don’t have the time to truly devote to it right now, being in my second quarter of graduate school and all.

The route I decided is take is, admittedly, not original in the least. I’m sure that there are several blogs out there devoted to this topic. However, it’s one that is really important to me right now and I think this is actually going to help me succeed where I might have failed before. I decided to do a blog about trying to live a healthier lifestyle.

But I’m taking a different approach than a lot of what is out there. I’m not going to sit here and give you advice on how you should live your life in order to be healthier. Instead, I’m going to take you on a journey – mine. I am on a mission to live a healthier lifestyle and I’m letting you in on my successes and my failures.

To start us off, I’d like to introduce myself a little bit and explain why I decided to do this blog. My name is Caitlin. As I stated above, I just started graduate school this past fall. I’ve always been a fairly busy person. In high school I was heavily involved in cheerleading and choir. So I always seemed to be running from practice or a game to tumbling classes and rehearsals for concerts. I’ve never been a twig (and I do love my curves) but I was always in shape and healthy because I was so active.

Once I got to college, things slowly started going downhill. I still would go to the rec and work out a lot. I did still manage to eat fairly healthy, especially considering I was living in a dorm, and having to walk everywhere was nice. However, I still wasn’t as active on a day-to-day basis and I used to be. And it only got worse from my sophomore year on. The real kicker happened during my junior year. I had a skiing incident. The circumstances are actually really hilarious if you know me and my klutzy ways but needless to say I royally screwed my knee up (the one that cheerleading hadn’t already screwed up). I wasn’t even able to attempt working out on it for a few months. This was when I really started to slowly put on some weight.

This May, I will have had my undergraduate degree for 2 years. In the interim, I’ve had a more than full time job that had me closing most nights (9 PM). I live with my boyfriend who gets to work to work at 5 AM every day (now 3 AM). So between my job and trying to see my boyfriend before he goes to sleep, I was juggling prepping for grad school and all the bill paying responsibilities that come with adulthood. And I was trying not to eat dinner at 11 every night. So healthy decisions weren’t always the easy ones to make.

Now I find myself back in school. But it’s so different from undergrad. Now you have 1 or 2 classes maximum but they take just as much if not more of your time as they did in undergrad. Plus, you have to juggle your research responsibilities. Plus you get the joys of being a teaching assistant (supervising labs and grading their assignments, meetings, office hours, and proctoring/grading exams). And I commute to school every day so I still don’t get home as early as I would like. Even though my day isn’t usually physically tiring, I usually come home mentally tired and it’s hard to get the energy to make dinner sometimes, which usually ends up leading to me making a  less healthy decision.

So here we are. I’ve put on about 50 pounds since I got out of high school. Amazingly (at least to me), I’ve only gone up 2 pant sizes since then though. I’ve gradually started hating looking at myself in the mirror. At least a mirror where I can see everything. A few months ago, I had my turning point moment. I couldn’t zip up a dress that I’d just bought a couple of months prior without some serious assistance from my boyfriend and even then I felt like I’d have trouble breathing it seemed so tight. I knew right then that something needed to change. However, things still really haven’t changed all that much. I’ve made some efforts but they don’t seem to last more than a week or so before I’m off the wagon.

I feel like my struggles, while different in the exact circumstances and situation, are the same that most people who want to be healthier have. So this is why I’m here. I decided that I needed a kick in the butt and I thought that if I put my journey in a more public forum, I’d have a little more incentive to stay on track. I can’t keep resting on the same tired excuses anymore. While I do have things and circumstances that make it more difficult for me to do this, I have to admit that I am just as responsible for things being the way they are. I use those difficulties as excuses and let that keep me from making an effort.

I don’t expect this to be easy. I know there will be days that I want to quit. And I’ll have my weak moments. But it’s all a part of the journey I guess. And hopefully, I can inspire someone out there to shoot for the same goals. Or at least the ones that suit their needs.

Losing weight isn’t my ultimate goal of all this. It’s one of them. I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t. But ultimately I just want to feel healthier and be able to look at myself in the mirror and like what I see again.

Now that we’ve covered a bit of the who and why, I guess we can move on to the what, when, where, and how. A lot of this blog will be kind of random as to what is on my mind at that moment in time but I have a few general concepts to give it some semblance of structure.

First, I want to do a weekly weigh in. Occasionally, it may be a week and day or so depending on school but the goal is once a week. If I do it more than that, I’ll start obsessing over it and I don’t want to since it isn’t my primary goal here.

Secondly, I don’t plan on giving the exact specifics of every bite that goes in my mouth or every rep that I do. I don’t think it’s that important in the grand scheme of things since that isn’t the primary goal of this blog. I want to talk about it in the overall sense of the struggles I have with eating and exercise and the successes I am able to do. If you really care and want to know you can ask and I’d be glad to give you some more in-depth information.

Lastly, I just want to talk freely about things that pertain to living a healthier lifestyle. Things like diets, vitamins, organic, exercise, etc. Just whatever strikes my mood at the time. Like I said before though, I won’t be talking about tips or anything like that. I’m thinking my thoughts on things and how they can be difficult to achieve or the perceptions they put out there. If I happen to come across a cool tidbit of information that I think is worth sharing, those are fair game too. But I promise that at no time will I attempt to tell you how you should live your life.

Now that I’ve taken up enough of everyone’s time, I will be off for now. The next post will start the weigh-in and probably have my first thoughts. Until next time then.

January 4, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | | Leave a comment